I've made many mistakes in my life. I've been in the lowest and what I thought were the highest places. But now I see that every relationship I had and every friend I've made has helped me on my path in some way. I have now been happily single for a year and a few months. Just trying to get my head on straight and get to know myself. I always lived for the other person making sure everything I did or bought was for or involved them. But not any more now I'm doing things for myself and making sure I'm happy before I carry on. My past is filled with many hurts and much pain and suffering but not anymore. I am a Christian and only now have I truly understood what that means. On November 29,2009 I re committed myself to live a life for God. And now my past has been forgotten through Christ. I myself am still struggling a bit but on a whole I feel 100 times lighter. I am also going to be baptized within the next month. I'm literally starting over in my life and this time I will be more careful as to who I let close to me. I will listen to my family and friends when they warn me and I will keep a clean head on my shoulders.